What sort of crap is this?

Weird stuff happening at work. Will know tomorrow. Good.

In other news, my refinancing is coming along and I'm doing some moderate home repairs. My bank account is shamefully low because of it. I feel almost trapped at times.

I won't get to see my baby cousin next weekend because of a travel issue. My brother is coming home in March instead of June which means my cousin will be staying here. I really hope I have some of the renovations done by then.

I finished the book choice and now I'm starting on Twilight. I promised and I hear it's addicting once you move past the bore of the first chapter or two. I've never been much for fiction so we'll see.

Most of the people I work with are pregnant and it dawned on me a few days ago after one of their baby showers that I was not regular in December. I only have a few more days until I'm supposed to start so I think I'll wait until after that to test. I hope I'm not. It's very bad timing with so much on my plate and certain jeopardy in my future. If I am it's something I'll deal with but it's just so scary.

I've been a bit ill recently and apparently it's made me a lot more tired than I expected. I slept the majority of the day yesterday and woke up long enough to eat a bag of popcorn and fall back to sleep. We had dinner plans which I slept through along with a few other things I missed. I guess when your body needs sleep it will take it. I wish I had health insurance.

The in laws are in Atlanta this weekend and at a hunting camp so we're left to take care of their pets. I don't mind really the animals are adorable but I am still resentful that the trip to Atlanta was my idea and I was very rudely cut out of it. I suggested it and planned it and then his mother took over and planned it for a different day so her niece and sister could go and it was just very hurtful that she did that. I wanted it to be a nice experience for the four of us and instead I'm left going on a different day. I don't thinks she realizes how crude her actions are sometimes. On the upside now I'm going with people I genuinely like already and have 3rd row tickets.

Knitting has come to a stand still giving way to balancing books and studying. I'm so worried about so many different things that I find my stomach doing flips. However tomorrow I have a 2pm knit group and on Monday night I have a knit group at 6pm so hopefully I'll finish up this scarf and get the hat done next week.

I did manage to lose three pounds this week, which was surprising considering I didn't go to the gym or watch what I ate. Looking back I realized that I actually did very little eating because I was too busy.

The other job I accepted is in a call center and while I hate the idea of going back to a call center I like it better than working in a job with no commission, no overtime pay, no health insurance, and being underpaid. I have to do what's best for myself and my family and while it may not always be enjoyable it's the right thing to do.

I worry that I am here at 21 with nothing accomplished and that ten years from now I'll be blogging that here I am at 31 having accomplished nothing. It's very stressful being an adult. I sometimes long for the days when the most I had to worry about was whether or not I'd have a pimple or an exam.

We watched Benjamin Button in the theater Friday night and it's a wonderfully sad film. It's a big long at 2 hours 46 minutes but well worth it. I cried a few tears at the end and wondered why people would rather see a comedy about a dog, or a comedy about two brides fighting than to watch something like this film.