Frustration.

There sometimes comes a day when a person you truly believed in just completely fucks you over and you realize that the person you loved is gone and has been replaced with something unrecognizable and worthless. It's just absolutely ridiculous. I hate that I've gotten to this place where I loathe someone I used to love so much. I just feel sorry for him because his life is going no where fast and despite my best efforts to encourage him towards a better path he insists on doing this stupid shit. I'm done before he pulls me down too.

Sometimes it takes nearly losing something to realize how much you liked it. We hit a rough patch a few months ago when he acted like a dumbass but we're coming around now. We have a date and a destination and a game plan. We'll see how it goes.

This Rebecca A. Long person... well she's horrible to start. Disturbed too. I hope that someone grabbed that little girl, gave her a great big bear hug, and told her she is loved. I can't wait to be a mother. I do because it would be irresponsible to do it now.. but I mean I just can't imagine ever doing that to a child. Any child. I guess that makes me normal. A relief I suppose.